It is strange to feel this desperate after only a few (5 and 1/2) days of no internet connection. Though I have had email access through my boyfriend’s iPhone, it’s not the same. (Especially because typing on a touchscreen keyboard is not the easiest thing to do! Does that make me sound old?)
When you have no internet, you’re kind of forced to do other things that you might have put off doing because normally you’d spend that time surfing the web or refreshing the facebook news page a hundred times. At least I’ve been a little productive. I organized my binder full of paperwork. I cleaned up my external hard drive and backed up some things. (Unfortunately, I have to buy a new hard drive because not everything would fit onto the old one. I put that on my to-do list.) I went to the grocery store.
But then, on the third day, desperation set in. I literally had nothing to do. I read some magazines. I watched a movie. I went to the grocery store (again). I actually put off going to the library to purchase a library card just so I would still have something to do.
People lived without the internet before and had quite happy, productive and fulfilling lives. Why can’t I find something to do that doesn’t involve the internet? I waste so much time on facebook, reading random blogs on Google Reader, and watching tv shows online. It’s easy to get bored with that, too, especially when you’ve refreshed the page several times already and nothing has changed because most people you know are in a time zone 6 hours behind you.
For me, the hardest thing for me about not having the internet is that I feel pretty isolated from what I consider to be my life. Blogging here, for example, is an important part of my life. But the thing I miss the most is not feeling that connection to my friends and family that I am able to experience thanks to the internet. Of course I am making a life for myself (and with Tobias) in Germany, but that is a slow process. I am starting to feel at home here, though, and that is a wonderful thing.
It is so good to be back “home”. I will post extra this week just to make up for it! But I must also say that it feels good to have finally finished reading my book, which I definitely would not have done this week if we had had an internet connection. Life is funny that way.